It's pretty hard to stay positive right now. I'm working so hard, but my mind is starting to have negative thoughts creep in. Sitting here in Bismarck while the rest of the team is on the road is so frustrating. Negative thoughts start to accumulate and get worse and worse once I let one bad one in. I'm the kind of kid who really doesn't like to show that I'm unhappy or upset about something, I sort of just try to let myself take care of it and make things better. I don't like to tell people or talk to people about it because that's the way I am. I've always been like that. (Haha, I guess this blog changes that because now I'm making my emotions public...) But I don't even feel like a Bobcat.
I want to get out on the ice and change that. And I want to know what I need to do to change that. I've been making strides here in the last few weeks, gaining confidence. Then, I get told to stay in Bismarck while the team goes on this road trip... There are just so many mental ups and downs that are hard to get through in this process. I'm learning a lot about myself. But this isn't high school hockey anymore. No one's going to baby me through this, hold my hand and tell me straight up, "You know, we think you're a really great player, and we think you're going to be our best defenseman." I have to figure out how to push out the negatives and focus on my goals. I need to keep getting better, keep working as hard as I have been, and not let these mental hiccups get me down because I know there will be a lot more as the season progresses.
Connor,
ReplyDeleteOnly you can tell how to best stay positive. I am sure negative thoughts are normal and part of the process. But I do think the mental game is probably more of what will help you to achieve more than anything else. I think its the difference between good and great. So this is a great learning experience for you.
Remember, good things are coming your way.
Love,
Dad