Tough Stretch for the Team

We've lost 3 games in a row, and I think some changes might be coming. I always hope one of the changes is seeing my name in the lineup, but I don't know if that'll happen, at least this weekend. Tonight we lost 2-1 to the Coulee Region Chill. It's so frustrating to watch games from the stands; I find myself almost rooting against our team when I'm not playing. I think it's natural that I want people to make mistakes because I want to play, I want to be on the bench and in the locker room with the team. It's probably a bad thing to be cheering against my own team from the stands, especially since we've heard a lot lately about how team success brings about individual success, but I can't help it. Of course I feel like I can play better than some of our defensemen are playing, but I won't know until I actually get into some game situations. I want to be 100% ready when my chance comes. I feel like I'm ready now, but maybe Coach is holding me back for a reason. Maybe he wants me to improve a little bit more before he puts me out there. I don't know. I will talk to him next week about what his plans for me are. But for now I'm going to bed. We have to win tomorrow or we'll be bag skating for sure next week..