I think my emotions kind of hit a tipping point on Saturday night. I was just feeling really down on myself, thinking I was never going to get to play, thinking that my dream of playing Division I hockey was really out of my reach if I couldn't even play in the NAHL. But I had time to regroup today, and I'm feeling a lot better, a lot more positive. I'm ready to have a good week of practice. I know I'm close to playing, but I also know that I want to be absolutely ready when my chance comes. I really do think things will work out for me here in Bismarck. And I really do think I can play Division I, but I need to worry about playing here first. It's good to always have that goal of playing Division I in mind, but it's also good to have reasonable, accomplishable goals that I can reach in the near future in mind to be fair to myself. I don't want to get ahead of myself because that could be dangerous.
Today, I hung out with Nick again, the 8 year old I've been spending time with on Sundays. I think he's a really fun kid, and I think he really likes to spend time with a Bobcat. It's definitely a mental break for me too. It's good to get back to the days of playing cops and robbers, Star Wars, and just having that carefree, imaginative attitude that an 8 year old has. I'm having a lot of fun with him. Now, it's back to work this week, though. It seems like it'll be next weekend before I know it, so I can't take a day off on the ice this week. I want to be more consistent and just have a good, solid week of practice.
Connor -
ReplyDeleteIts great to read about you having fun with Nick. When it comes down to it, that's the real important stuff. We are excited for you buddy - it sounds like you have just the right perspective on things this week.
Love,
Dad
Hi Connor,
ReplyDeleteI bumped into your Mom and she told me about your blog. I think that it is great that you are taking the time to write about your journey. Hang in there. It is early in the season and there is always a time of adjustment needed when you move on to a new level. I have enjoyed watching you the last few years. You have what it takes Connor! One of the hardest things to develop in hockey is a head for the game, the ability to slow the game down and have a sense of all that is going on around you. You have this sense. The speed and skills needed at a new level will come quick with your sense for the game. Stay positive and make sure you keep it fun!
Dave Baker (Summers Dad)
Thanks Dave!! Can't wait to come to some BMHS games this year.
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